I like penises, they make me feel good. They have a funny hat and they squirt stuff that is slippery. They are good to sit on. They are good to rub against. They are good inside of pants or with no pants.

I like the reactions of penises. They are all different, but some of them are bigger. Men compare them to objects. Like twigs or mushrooms or baseball bats. Hard, then soft, hard then soft, hard then soft... It's the most fun to make them soft... the challenge of making them soft. Is it a challenge or just inevitible?  Read more »

Evil Goodness
Current mood: dirty

You know, I have this big dilema. I have this thing inside me I call "evil goodness". You know, we all generally try to be good, but we have a dark side that we don't often share with others and definitely not the world. The evil goodness is me wanting to be a good girl, but occassionally being driven to acts of depravity... or evil.  Read more »

This is going to sound strange, but I've realized something about myself. When it comes to being with men, it doesn't seem to matter ethnicity, sexiness factor, age, etc... Almost every time I am intimate with someone, I fall in love. I'm not saying deep, true love, but I am saying, I melt into the other person. At that moment, it is like time stops and I picture my life with them. If I could split myself into a dozen people each spending a life with each, I would have done it. My sister and I are both a bit like shape shifters, we morph into our partners culture, lifestyle, interests etc.  Read more »

So some of you have noticed that I haven't been posting very much the past few weeks. I recently had hormone shots and pellet implants.

http://hormonebalance.org/pellets_info.asp  Read more »

So last night I went out with one of my girlfriends to the P.O.D. pre-Superbowl party in Tempe. Basically there was a VIP party on the 2nd floor of this club that we got invited to.  Read more »

I continue to think more and more about this evolution process and how we transform into TS. I think I would consider myself a success story in a lot of ways. If anyone saw me 100% without surgery, in person, there would have been no mistake of my born gender. None. I cannot claim to have been born feminine. I was born small framed with good hair, but that is the extent of it.

I started out my transition in secret. I started by growing my hair, toning my body, and doing somewhat subtle things like piercing both ears and plucking my eyebrows.  Read more »

First of all, you have to understand this note isn't part of Vicki's life... it's part of my life. It's something very different. People wonder what girls like me do with their time and how they live day by day... this is a small dose of that.  Read more »

I started responding to a post and the realized I was blogging again. I thought I would share it here so it sticks.

When I first started my foray into the adult world, I would go on a few chat sites. AOL, Yahoo, URNA, etc. I first started posting pictures on a site called Picturetrail. It was a great site that was spawned during the dot.com boom. It had this comments section. With no surgeries, no implants, and just a few months of hormones, guys were giving me great props and confidence.  Read more »

After speaking with a TS counterpart today. I have decided to turn over a new leaf and focus on the positive elements of the TS society. I freely admit that certain events have caused me to become a bit jaded of most other girls, but at the end of the day, we're all just living the life we didn't really have a choice but to live. I think I come across as elitist, snobby, etc... all good reasons for other girls to stay away from me. I'm really not THAT bad in real life.

That said:  Read more »

There is no such thing as too passable. Being passable changes your life. Society interracts with you much better. I can't even describe it. When people think you're a pretty GG, you get treated like royalty. It's the small things like doors get held open even if you are 10 feet behind the guy holding it, having guys give you extra attention when taking your car into the shop or going to a hardware store, or getting drinks bought for you in any club. There is really no way to describe how much better (in the small ways) attractive women get treated.  Read more »